I really don't get it!!! Why is this the only thing that i can do when i really really need something or somebody to cheer me up???!!!
It really stinks, I mean really STINKS and so freakin frustrating.
Its just ridiculous
I mean there has to be something or somebody that can cheer me up. seriously even to talk- nobody?? FINE- I'll say it again- this stinks-its all i can do at the moment.
You know some how everyone has a secret desire, well no surprise here - i ALSO have 1. But i actually got a taste of it- as in i actually got it... and ... i ... so unbelievably blew the whole DAMN THING OFF!! I mean GOD!!!??? seriously(this is where u create a visual in ur head with some 10 different hollywood hot-shots giving their own emphasis on the 'seriously' word). And this-to all the people out there is the FREAKIN MOTHER of ALL FRUSTRATIONS!!
To actually have that one thing that you have always wanted- and it slips out of your own 2 hands not to mention with a blabbering tongue in between because of your own own pea sized brain- is..is.. babe seriously there is no salvation for you(me)
The meeting that i had today was disasterous- with a capital "D" thats bold and underlined & yes don't forget the double quotes.
And here i am writing about it coz i am alone with nobody to talk coz- nobody has the time!! right!!
whinnings gonna occupy time.
You can imagine at this point of time that even i had that stupid hypothetical boyfriend who is so scared to talk to me in public would have stood me up..
The scenario is such that i know what will make me feel better..
- A pat on the shoulder
- Somebody saying- hey dont be to hard on yourself- or hey u know shit happens deal with it
- A heart warming smoke
- Verbal unload on a good friend- and NOT THE SCREEN for crying out loud!!
- An extra large glass of extra chilled beer..
- Or even bunking office for that matter
Hmm.. you also know what definately wont work:
- being alone
- smoking(thinkin of)
and BLABBERING OUR HEAD OFF to a screen
all that - aint working..
well, don't u think that u are lucky to have something, where u jot down your thought and some people actually care to read it...:)loneliness can also be termed as 'universal ghost'..deep down every one is afraid of it, we all need attention, care and the feeling that we are not alone!there is nothing worst than having your dinner alone in night (breakfast n lunch are manageble.;)but just to feel better think of people who living life worst than u are...at the end everything is for REASON...just we got to hang in there to figure it out...:)
ReplyDeleteummm.... so.. you misplaced certain phone numbers all over again!!!??!!!
ReplyDeletegreat!! Now expect THAT call.. not sure it does much to ease what u describe up there.. it sure adds a lot of spice for ur next write up!