for the love my day(no kidding)

I wake up with a stiffy- just the one in my neck not anything else...

As I strutter around the room like a pricey zombie. I end up wishin I was a headless zombie- it would have been more fun-- walking around like one, eating like one, talking like- --Aaarrrghhh- one. I can imagine that even in that condition I would not care for any other zombies, so if u got ur own stiff neck story to share- share it with someone else- I am not interested!!

Along with the zombie phase comes all the whining and struggling and the anger. Like Vica once said to me - for me every freakin ailment is like a killer disease & I got 2 things to say to that:

1) its in my genes to think that way &

2) WHY THE HELL SHOULDN'T I THINK THAT WAY?????

fending for your-broken-self really aint easy! so there I am all half broken, cant move and all; when I hear the rumbling in my belly (this where I very earnestly wished I had a bitch or a slave whom I could whiplash into doing some work!!)

So I rampage through my purse and find out what a bitch technology is- so no matter how many cards u may have in ur wallet the people around (stupid home delivery restaurants) wont carry a portable card machines!!! dont look so aghast I am pricey and nobody asked ur opinion. so I am like "GRRRRR!" biscuits and chips it is!

this is where the calls start!!

Call 1

Doc: U need some more test done- u may be more sick that I thought*!!! (* was sick earlier so went in for some test)

Me: WHAAA??????!!!!!

Doc: oh yea! meet me with the reports

Me : "GRRRR"

Call 2

Ass (aka ass boss): hey! this is unacceptable!! how can u expect me to do all this work??? i cant do all this! what should i do??

Me: ya whatever!! I'l get it done!! just stop harassing me.

So I wish this would end!! And here comes

Call 3

Ass: hey man u have to check the work that goes out here

Me: Whaaa???

Ass: if not then u see....

Me: fine watever just send it!!

Call 4

Wiener Whiner (aka client): Hey i didnt get it, ur boss said u blah blah blah

Me: fine u'l get it (go away! stop callin me)

and it continues- body half broken, howling stomach and yea handicapped (redundant- who asked u??)

I needed help, so I ask the neighbor

Neighbour: Awww u pooooorrrr thhhiiiiinnnnnggg (phew)go get these meds -  yourself...

Me(to self): oh I am sorry, I guess u didnt see anything broken here....

Me: ignoring

Neighbour: yelling out loud (like the prophets to the infidels)

the gods are angry with you. Ur life is cursed and evil has befallen you. it will rain locust and diseases both eating and killing you. If u want to avoid it you need to do this......

Me: TERRIFIEDDD

25 mins later..

Me: TERRIFIEDDD

60 mins later

Me: I need new neighbours!!!!

Me contemplating: Is me and my house really cursed????hmmm.. where the hell is that Breanna???

Breanna:  STOP BLAMING CRAP FOR YOUR FCK UP!!!

Me: Whaaaa...??? I like BLAMING CRAPP!

Breanna: shut up and get a life!!!

Me: I HAVE a life!!

Breanna: oh that  life is pretty fucked up!! get A NEW ONE!! and CALL YOUR MOM

Me: HEYY!!!

me calling home...sigh..i really don't have the energy for this- i think il have a red bull...

Mom: How can u be sick?????

Me: shit happens its ok- no big deal

Mom: no its not supposed to happen- u crazy???

Mom: U R SO SICK (x 4- like a horrible tape stuck)

Me: no I am not!!

Mom: ppl die with your kind of illness!!!!(read in a dramtic ultra high pitch)

Me: WHAA..........................r u mad....NO!!

Mom: YES!!

Me: NO

Mom: YES

Me: 'NOOOOOO'

Mom: fine - i'l come down there and prove it to you!!

Me: Hey NOO!! wait wait - i'l do the damn test!!

Mom: Good! lemme know ASAP!!

Docs office

Doc: Ahh! there is nothing worry about- shit happens

Me:u sure???My mom wants to know if it will kill me!!

Doc: HAR HAR! here is the bill- only cash please!

Me: zombie style : ARRGGGHHH!!

My office:

Ass: WAAAAHHH! WAAAAH!I dont wanna loose my job waaahhhhhh

Me: WTF u talking about???

Ass: WAAAAHHHH (harder)

Blood sucking freak(read my second blog): who screwed the dummy??(a book dummy)

Ass: Spontaneously : She did(finger pointing also) she took an unexpected holiday

me: holiday???!!! I was sick U DIMWIT

Blood sucking freak: WTF- u this, u that!! u screwed! u fcuked!!

Ass sits there with cheese pop corn in one hand and a large pepsi in the other & watches the show

Me: bewildered at the cowering assfaced dimwit : FCUK U ALL!! I QUIT!!!

Atmosphere: silence all around

My Atmosphere: buzzing in  my ears

Ass: NOOOOO.....hmmm. better u than mee....I got a family to feed my balls to...waaaahhhh...sniff...sniff

Me: Fck urself

(My head to me- I should sue these buggers to teach them a lesson of lifetime!!)

Call(Home)

Mom: I wanna come

Me: NOW???!!!!!

(My head to me- WTF - GREAT!!)

Mom: Yea.. I wanna see how ur doing, etc.etc.

Me: No

Mom: y, No???

Me: NOOO Not now!!!

me updating Breanna about the office

Breanna: WTF IS WRONG WITH U????

Me: errrrrr....

Breannna: I dont know how this ends up happening always!!!fine, we'll figure something out!! watever!! bye!!!!

Me: GOSH!! what a  long day huh...- 

So I go to sleep and the next morning: I wake up with another stiffy-No u ASS its my leg!!!

my leg sprained while I was sleeping!!!!really??? Wat the hell? the gods have cursed after all... I need to throw away my mattress....

grace pain & love

She is called Jacqueline, she is beautiful in more ways than one

Her name Jacqueline is perfect for her- she is a quiet beauty-  classy and sophisticated, with a such a tough exterior. She has so much happening in a her life with very few actually knowing it &  even fewer friends..

When any one meets her, they might find her, so simple, so quiet & so by herself. She is all that, but, as always, but there are layers to everything...

I first met Jackie at my 1st work place. She was dressed very simply, spoke little and got the job done. She gave u polite airs that- yes i acknowledge u, will get ur job done, but please don't hang around or expect anything else...

So I also did the polite thing of backing off...till one day we had to go to a recording together & there she was- (i wouldn't say all dressed up) but yea stunning and yes vocal- which today i define, as her being friendly :)

As the days turned into weeks and weeks into months and then years, today I am glad to have her as a very good friend of mine.

straighten up she's coming!!

Among the ultra few (good) friends that I have, lemme introduce to you Breanna

On the outside:

She is crazy strict/stern

made of crunch paper- crackling all the time

she is the one who instills fear in the minds of the losers

and completely reliable

On the inside

She is crazy strict

made of crunch paper- crackling all the time

she is the one who instills fear in the minds of the losers

and completely reliable..

Also, the best confidante,

very loving,

completely pure at heart,

very moral driven,

splash of reality in her head,

Pushes you to do great things without even u realizing it..

brings out the best in you or you want to be at your best around her.

We call her fatso (she is a 'o' sized creature), the firang, apart from terminator and Jhansi Ki Rani :)

People who are close to her realize that she is to valuable to loose..even though they may be scared of her :D

For me she has been - even without me realizing it- my pillar and my rock. I will have to admit- this woman has driven me crazy at times- as in literally crazy!!

We used to work together- till she became my boss!! and it was..kinda..bad.. it was like this bad phase completely- for both of us.

What we often discuss is everything- morals, issues, politics, everything, and a good sensible conversation is very stimulating.

Knowing her- U have to wonder how does she pull it off??(all of the above). She makes time for u and u can be yourself around her (in most ways!). She takes sincere effort to understand you, your actions, your words, everything.

So thank you Breanna for being very selflessly- you!!

my bubble

Once I had received a mail which said that- the people present at any given point of our lives are there mainly due to the circumstances around us at that point of time...

The point is that, as the circumstances slowly follow its cycle of change, these people also slowly fade into oblivion...

This is actually kinda sad in 1 perspective- coz, mostly, these are the people that make up our lives, create an impression, and some actually take another step ahead and become lovemarks for us. Lovemarks are those people or places or things that have impacted our lives so much,  that we cant do with out. And when they fade off we often question ourselves- what happened? where did it all go? how come we aren't in touch anymore? hmm...

So, I guess I am wondering now- what do we do-  to not let these important people fade off into this oblivion..

So I decided to give a sketch of all the people in my life- the subsequent blogs will be about the amazing people in my life!!!

killing yourself

Don't get misled by the title. This is not about committing suicide or something like that. This is about when ur morals and beliefs are put to test and u so miserably fail..

Generally in life there are many beliefs & morals that one live their lives by. But there are few that are so strongly followed.

The moment we give up on those beliefs & morals, is the moment we kill ourselves leaving nothing else to move on to, nothing else to believe in any more.. 

how much a part of ourselves will we be giving up every time something goes wrong with us?? what will happen when we do give away everything that we believe in- are we to move on & get new beliefs or do we just move on to a self destructive pattern... so what is that we do exactly when we screw everything that we believe in and have nothing left for ourselves??

I am really curious for answer..

To all out there reading this - seriously tell me, can any one be prepared for this or can anyone get themselves some kind of shock absorbers to help absorb the extend of the damage? can there be any sort of precautions be taken preparing you for the worst..

So when it comes to your final moment in life- we hope that it is with some dignity left. So after u have sold your soul to the devil is there any worth of u that is actually dying??

Its a lost cause..

So dont do it- no matter what the world says - the society, your best friends, your life partner says- if u don't believe it just don't do it. Coz there is just no way of getting around it, or forgetting it or even moving on - everything is lost cause from the point you give in to everyone and ignore your own beliefs. 

Imagine goin minute after minute, night after night, questioning yourself- was that right or convincing yourself that it was the right thing to do, or regretting that you shouldnt have done it....none of it - nothing is goin to help and all these people who covinced you that u did the right thing are not going to be there- and even if they are there they will not be able to help u in any sorta way.

its just gonna be u- killin yourself slowly